one simple push

i'm laying here at nearly 4:30am... duh, my fault.
its not hard to get on or off a track in life.  i'm still up at this hour because i slept in, stayed in bed after, didn't work out, went to my parent's house and ate comfort food, then took a nap, then laid in bed watching tv all night - surprise... i'm not tired until now.

there was a time when i got up and made it to 8am mass and worked out every day.  there was a time when i avoided booze and put zero soda in my body, instead replacing it with the known weight-loss beverage of water.  i also was smart enough to eat nothing but meat so i could lower my body fat instead of being that shapeless 'skinny-fat' and keep my chin and neck while losing my belly...
yes, there was a time.

so, if i was going to be smart, i would get up in 3 hours and get back on track - ugh.  nothing is worse than knowing what works to look and feel good, then not doing it.  i could make popular choices and make egotistic claims of being able to cut corners, but in the end, i know what i need to do like everyone else.

i'm not going to be one of those people who thinks he looks fine, but knows he really doesn't.