never alone

someone i know is facing the possibility of a great loss. for a handful of reasons she feels she cannot count on me to be there for her, and in the relatively recent past when i was in a serious situation facing great loss, and she did not rush to my side. i have no way to convey how much i worry about her, how much i want to be there for her, and how much i think of her as a person in spite of all the flaws everyone has.

some would think that due to our recent past i would think less of her, that she doesn't matter, or that i couldn't be bothered to hold genuine concern. well, i do. and its keeping me from sleeping.

bah, i guess its not important in the long run. you can care about someone else all you want, but if they are unable to see it, or refuse to allow themselves to see it, i guess it won't make a difference. it's a shame.