the craft of not crafting

when it got cold, a friend of mine sucked me back into 'the game', a video game we play online... it has again proven itself to be a dreary malaise of time passing.

life's an interesting thing.  i love my freedom... i am left with so many open days to do anything.  but without something paying me on enough of those days, i can't do anything on the days when i'm free.

today i went to a friend of mine's store and changed the light bulbs that were burnt out, and i did it because i wanted something to do, and i like to be involved in things with friends.  i miss working with friends...

there are people in my life who often complain about how busy they are, which is entertaining on some level because more often than not, they are 'busy' with random things they are choosing to do to keep busy.  really, they aren't working, they aren't dealing with pressing family issues... they apparently feel the need to look busy and tell everyone this.

you never hear Donald Trump talk about how busy he is during interviews, and i know some wealthy and powerful people... i never hear them talk about how busy they are either.  they may talk about their day, but you never hear about how busy they are.  the only people i hear it from are the people who really don't have anything to do.

lately, i've been like them... but i've been filling it with 'the game' - and i'm horrifically bored.  the only bonus is that i have some kind of a social circle there, friends i've made over time who i enjoy in person but really only see them in the game.  they all recently came back to the game, some recently quit as well... one giving the reasons of lost time and a recent move, the other without explanation.  we assume the second is doing it for his kids.

so now, i need to get out of this winter funk, and get more to do - hopefully more with a paycheck.